Facing Fears

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Fear is one of those very-human things that pretty much everyone experiences at some point in their life.

I think it’s good to scare yourself once in a while. For example, when I went to Italy last summer, I had to face one of my biggest fears: flying. It was obviously worth it. And then some. And you know what, the next time I flew wasn’t nearly as scary.

Ever since I can remember, I’ve had a fear of deep water. This may or may not have something to do with my longtime fascination with lost ocean liners…Whatever it is, even being in the deep end of a pool gives me the shivers. I pretend it doesn’t, but when I can’t touch the bottom, I get a little spooked. It’s gotten worse as I’ve gotten older. Needless to say, I’ve never been a huge fan of water sports.

However, I decided to go for a swim the other day.

My space-alien body double

In the past two weeks, I’ve been thinking of activities that won’t hurt my foot. Why not turn this into an opportunity to learn something new, you know? I’m already scared sh!tless about all the what-ifs that x-rays may or may not clear up, so I figured, what’s a little water?

Haha, well, until this past Saturday, I had never gone swimming in a big pool with lanes. Naturally, everything I know went out the window, and I found myself panicking. Halfway across the pool, I saw, ” WATER IS 12 FEET DEEP” and freaked the f out. I made it two laps before deciding to call it quits.

But then I couldn’t get out of the pool! It was hilarious. I tried to climb out, but this pool was clearly not designed with Jess-sized people in mind. After a few slippery attempts, I swam across a few lanes to the ladder. As I climbed out, I was shaking like a wet kitten.

I was about to head back to the locker room, but was too embarrassed to give up so soon, so I grabbed a kick board and did a few comically disastrous laps. I felt so self-conscious and was still shaking like crazy, but at least I wasn’t thinking abut being cold!

As I showered, I did feel kind of ridiculous, but I was also insanely proud of myself for getting in the water at all. You have no idea how many times I almost talked myself out of going. And now that I’ve tried—and failed—I can’t wait to try again.

Before I get back in the water, though, I’m going to practice a few times. Luckily, my parents are always telling me to come out and use their pool, and I have a few trips planned. Hopefully refreshing my muscle memory will make for a less ridiculous experience…

What are some of your fears? Which ones are you proudest of facing? 

7 thoughts on “Facing Fears

    Jen Digney said:
    July 25, 2011 at 2:46 pm

    I love swimming and grew up at the beach or down south in the Florida springs and rivers and was never afraid. I swam in this deep dark cave called Devil’s Den (http://www.birdsdivecenter.com/images/content/dive_tours/devilsden-large.jpg) full of gigantic catfish circling you (ALONE, while my parents scuba dove, mind you) and wasn’t afraid. But the older I get, the more I share your fear of deep water. I think because Matt is absolutely shit-terrified of it and it’s rubbing off on me. What really horrifies me is seaweed. I always went swimming in this rock quarry about 45 mins from Richmond and although it’s very deep, since it is spring fed and has a granite bottom the water is crystal clear and there’s no seaweed, so I was never afraid of it. It’s lovely 🙂 http://www.lakerawlings.com/

    Don’t mind me, I’m just reminiscing 🙂

      Jess responded:
      July 26, 2011 at 2:28 am

      So cool! I love your reminiscing!

    Kelly said:
    July 25, 2011 at 3:30 pm

    You are awesome for getting in the pool in the first place, seriously! That takes a lot of guts. Swimming is HARD if you haven’t done it in a while, let alone if you have a fear of water. Once you get used to it, I bet you’ll be great!
    I probably haven’t faced some of my worse fears (involving dating and hairy spiders…) but someday I will. Sooner rather than later!

      Jess responded:
      July 26, 2011 at 2:31 am

      OMG hairy spiders is about as gross as it gets! Someone was telling me recently about going someplace where people ate fried tarantulas—maybe or maybe not on a stick. I cannot imagine being able to do that!

    Nancy Trim said:
    July 25, 2011 at 4:07 pm

    Good job Gal! And so smart of you to think of activities that are not stressful for the foot. I also have a fear of flying and deep water. WTH? We got the scaredy cat gene. Oh well, just one more thing to keep us busy I guess. Love Ya! A.Noo

      Jess responded:
      July 26, 2011 at 2:34 am

      Haha see and I just thought it was too much reading about the Lusitania, Titanic, etc when I was a kid. Guess it’s just genetics!

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